Awakening. Raising. Eye opening experienced. You name it.

The people that comes from a broken family will easily drawn to negative activities.

That is definitely not a brainy thought, considering that those people with dark situation in their family or social life are usually depressed and becoming very down and pessimistic.

And yes, ladies and gentleman.

I am one of those people who comes from a broken family and, sadly, were falling deeper and was making every kind of mistakes.

Continuous mistakes that I should have avoid because I know I was wrong everytime.

It was dark and very uncomfortable, living with fear and negative thoughts. I was depressed, lonely, and feels like I was rejected by everyone.

Yes, it was not a good thought.

Maybe God wants to see how strong I am gonna hold on, if I keep hanging on to the idea of patience. 

Or maybe all of those dark situations are simply just the reciprocate act from God, because of my nasty behavior. 

I remember when I was younger and was buried in the very bottom part of my life.

 I couldn't even think clearly because, I believe, I'm having too many demons that clouds my judgment. 

There is no will to get up in the morning and cleaning my own room.

There is no will to even getting socialized with another people. 

I was too tied up to my computer, watching every kinds of TV series and playing so many games while munching tons of snacks. 

It was horrible, the feeling that you get when you realized you are a lazy person with no bright future. 

until that time comes.

That time when a person comes and changing everything. 

A person that was very shiny for me back then, a person that is perfect for the little miserable me. 

A person that is reaching out and seems like he was actually care. 

                                

He motivates me and told me that I can do better. 

And he was right. 

I found my motivation right away. 

At first, it's because I don't wanna make him disappointed. 

Keep looking and searching, while striving for the best. It was months and months of hard work and determination to find out who am I. What is my weaknesses, and my strength. What is me. 

My effort was finally paid off. I was no longer that quite corner girl. I am a girl with a voice now. 

I used to think that he was my soul mate, my one love that could be the husband of mine someday. 

Then I realized, he's just an angel that was sent by God to wake me up. 

To knock my inner scrapper out. 

He's my awakening, my raise beginning, and my eye opening experienced. 

He's not my soul mate like I was thinking before. 

Now, my life's expanding freely. My whole life has been spreading out with bunch of wonderful opportunity that I'm grateful of. 

I'm still trying to find that soul mate, but these motivation to live better, I have found them because of God's help. (Through him, that 'once my true love but turned out to be not').

And now, it's your turn to find out who is your awakening angel.

Pay close attention to those people who's really care to you. Those people who gave you so many motivations and who actually believe in you and your outstanding capability. 

Find them. 

Then you'll know. It's your time to soar.